25/11/2024
2-ade
I wanna fade,
I wanna evade
From this world, far away.
Detach from this pain of nothingness.
I wanna get entirely lost somewhere,
Just like the void within me.
I wanna embrace the feeling of emptiness I have inside,
Relieved from the burden of this life.
Open and wide,
Like a ballet dancer, free and wild.
How dark is the hole in my heart,
Hollow like a water jar,
Filled with dusty air, tightly packed;
On the verge of exploding.
Compressed by brutal skin,
Like a treasure box buried deep in the ground,
Covered by mud and decorated with weary leaves
And broken twigs, just like the nerves
Scattered pebbles just like clotted blood
All around, all around
Let me sink in the bathtub of my tears,
Choke to death and not die yet,
Let me feel the pain of between,
The weight of my wounds pressing down
Even if it means enduring the pain.
Let my heart know, if only once,
The depth of true emotional despair.
I just want to feel, to truly feel,something or anything
Even if it means embracing the pain.
After all, all i want is
to fade,
to evade
16/8/2024
