06/05/2024
Myrna This is a letter that I hope you are able to read and it comes from my heart
I don't know where to really start so maybe at the beginning. The night we met and you left your car and we went to Chucks house. Spent the night and Sunday morning I had to take you back to your car. When you drove off I sat there and said that you were everything i needed in my life only knowing you for those few hours we spent together. I went to work Monday and sent you flowers just to tell you how special you were. I remember you were about to head out of state Miles do you remember. But fir some reason you changed your mind. And we started dating. One day while we lived in Silverdale you came in and asked me to marry you I'll never forget because I was going to ask you but thought I didn't want to scare you away by asking you so soon but that day my life meant something. I met the woman that I always hoped for and prayed I would meet and you were asking me to marry you. When we said our vows for better or for worse for richer or poorer until death do us part. Do you remember and I told myself no matter what I had to do I just had to take care of you for the rest of our lives. Yeah we had our moments but for me it was all new but we got thru and things were always getting better I remember the day you came and talked about work and I said not knowing about anything of your situation I said don't worry we will take care of it and I don't want you to workthat you could just stay home and take care of things made me happy knowing that you were able to do that . Yeah there were times we struggled but we made it it was just like we were always perfect for each other.we knew that there would be difficult times but we made it. We had good holidays and everyday was good I went to work everyday knowing I wanted to get home just to be with you and to see how your day went and it always made me happy even on my worst day at work knowing that you were there when I got home.we were happy we had a few stumbles on the way but nothing we couldn't deal with no matter how big the problems were we were growing stronger each time and my life was just as I wanted a beautiful woman I loved and still do more than life.and she loved me and I knew there was nothing that was going to tear us apart. No matter what.it made life together easy a bit hard but easy because we always found our way.
S**t I gave up everything just so I didn't screw anything up for us. Family friends I didn't care because I always had you and you meant and mean the world to mean and I would do anything to keep it that way no matter what it was. I remember when we had alot of money and it went u would say let's save it I never wanted to I just wanted to make you happy I could get more. We enjoyed it life and as long as you were happy I was OK with it. Then came the mike sellards problem and you know what happened and according to everyone it was all my fault and I thought I was going to loose you
Almost but we made it thru it and became stronger and things were getting back to better than normal worked at Kathy's in Bainbridge and we were better than ever started painting more and everything was going good a few sh*tty workers but we were making it then jennifer and the covid bu****it work slowed and the work being done I wasnt getting Paid for. But we still made it until my doctors visit . And along came our next hurdle this one was probably the hardest we faced. My hardest problem I faced cancer and everything else to go with it emergency room after emergency room staying in the hospital for days cather after cather it was very hard for me the first time I could do anything to help it and still does beats me up tired stressed knowing that if something happened to me what did you have to depend on we had nothing and were ready to loose everything again and this time was going to be harder because I had a flat tire . The way it felt and hurt and the worrying about you made everything worse and me aggravated and when I would get mad I would yell at you. Which I am truly SORRY for I didn't mean to but I couldn't get control over it I was giving up and I wish you could have understood how weak I felt because I left everything on you. And for that i am also very sorry. I didn't mean to but I lost control over everything because of the illness and pressure was building on you which you were getting tired of and I do understand and apologize for but everything was out of my control I asked for help with it and that's when they had me talk to the psychologist and have been to trying to get a handle on things to make everything better because my whole life purpose is to take care of you. And I am truly sorry I couldn't do that the last couple of months and I wish you could understand what I went and am currently going thru.
You know some of it but the stuff I keep to myself because I don't want you to worry
But I guess you were tired of my yelling and the stress it put on you. And it was time for you just to leave and give it all up because of the stress of facing the one thing I had or have control over .
And I am truly sorry for everything that I have ever said wrong to you. I know that with the help of others that your mind is made up or you would not have moved to Maryland with your son you would have not had your son block me from all of your accounts and you would have not filed for a divorce. But I didn't think probably took it all for granted that YOU CAN give it all up all the years we spent to gather the good and bad times the holidays those special times we shared together I guess I was totally wrong for thinking that you wouldn't give up and it took this to get what I wanted for you wad security to know you had something to fall back on if something happened to me And that's happening now also we could have been able to take care of your paperwork.
I pray everyday that I wake up and it's all a dream. Then when I hear you listen to your son in the background even the judge had to tell you to listen to him not who was talking and you say I mentally abuse you Because I yelled at you because I had no control of my feelings and you didn't understand that but your don knows how the hell does he know when he lives across the United States this is our problem we are facing its ok to ask for advise but it's not alright for people to make decisions for you. Mental abuse if that's what you say what is it called when during the holidays when and remember when your Don decides to spent the 3 or 4 hours with you and spends all the time with his dad and your crying saying he don't care and his friends list on facebook has offie as his step mother and your not even mentioned as his mother what does that tell you but when he did show and went out for the few hours he only has for you wasnt it nice how your own husband never got invited to go I sat on Christmas eve on several occasions by myself makes me feel real important doesn't it. That's what I call Mental stress not raising my voice because of a sickness I have no control over. The worst time in my life and you walk away and decide that it's easier. It is for you to give up and walk away when I need you most in my life .
When the years we spent together I did everything for you never gave up on you did my best even though it wasnt the greatest of times but I never gave up and walked away from you
Myrna, I don't care about anything that happened with the courts so far we can still make it thru this together
I'm asking you to just one more try before we throw it all away
Just one more chance no matter what has happened we can still work this out
You don't realize what I have given up for you family friends u mean the world to me and you know I'll do anything for you
Let's not just throw it all away please give us one more chance
That's all I can ask
It scares me to death and I really mean that
It scares me to know I might not have you in my life I don't think I can do it without you.
Please even if we only talk before we go further with this
Do you think I at least deserve the ability to talk to you about it I think I deserve at least that. So I'm asking please let's at least talk before this goes further .
And remember i love you with all of my heart and will never stop you mean everything to me
Love still your husband
George
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Let's talk I deserve that after all these years
Love you
Miss you
Love
George
