01/02/2024
HOW DOES IT FEEL WHEN THE PERSON U HAVE LOVED SO MUCH LEAVES YOU???!!!!!
People think that after a breakup, only the lover leaves you. But that’s so just the surface of it. Dig a little deeper, and you will know that the biggest problem is that love leaves you too. You lose all hope in love. You feel betrayed. You feel cursed. You feel undeserving. And it’s not so much about the person. It’s more about the love you thought you really had. We hold the person. But what we hold dearest is the love of that person. Yes, people come, people go. But can that love come again? That’s the real fear. Can I love again? Can I trust again? Can I be happy again? Can I ever feel the pure magic in that kiss? Can I ever make love like it’s not just two bodies? A lover takes with him/her your hope in love. A lover takes away your dream.
And that’s why breakups are so hard, especially the first breakup. People think that you are missing the person. But it’s not even a half-truth. You are missing being in love. You miss feeling special. You miss feeling wanted. You miss having someone to call your own. And that feeling of wanting to be loved is so much more than wanting that person. The person is just the boat you were on while floating in love. The depth of love lies in the water, and it’s ocean deep. People keep trying to forget the boat. But they don’t realize that it’s the water that you are missing. The scars of a breakup are deeper than a name or a face. The scars are emotional. The scars are about that special feeling and that trust you put in love. The scars are about the promises that were broken. The scars are about how your soul feels used, not your body.
So after a breakup, only you know how it feels. Only you know how a million emotions are crushing your soul. Only you know that it’s so much more than just “missing your ex.” You bloody don’t even miss that human sometimes. It’s just the sadness, the pain, the anger, the frustration, and the betrayal. You are dealing with someone burning your will to love again. You are scared because now you hate the whole thing, the love, the romance, and the sweet things. You did not lose a lover. You lost love